whoever said that it was fun being an adult was a liar. it's nothing but going here, money there, i need this and that. the toys-r-us ppl had it on point when they came up with there famous jingle: "i don't wanna grow up, i'm a toys-r-us kid/ there's a million toys at toys-r-us that i can play with..." i really didn't expect to grow up as quickly as i did. as the new year began, i made a promise to myself that i would enjoy the rest of my life. up until now, i had been taking ppl and time for granted when they r the most important assests i have. i'm 18 goin on 19 and i have to act like it but at the same time maintain the humbleness which got me favor in many people's eyes. i'm known for my maturity and wisdom but i never let that go to my head. it's just a gift God has granted me. no doubt, i still have a lot to learn, but i know i'm ready for it.

for those of u sho care to read my blog at all, I'M BACK!! i didn't really go anywhere, i just didn't have the time or urge to write in here. my life has gotten relatively complex since my last entry. i'm wearin myself thin wit skoo, work, church, and coachin girls basketball. i very rarely have time to sit down and relax for a few hours. men have come into my life and just confused me. right now i'm tryin to make a decion between two of them and it's so hard. i don't get a chance to chill wit my friends as much as i want to and i want them to kno that i still  love them.

man i ain't wrote on here in a minute. so much has happened since my last entry. i'll just give u an update on the most imptortant stuff. i got a job. makin that chedda. O YEAH!! i'm still tryna get into skoo this fall. kinda late but i always been a procrastinator. um, still no bf. it didn't really effect me until today until when i guy at work asked me whether having a bf was by choice or had i been forced away from the idea. i want one but...i don't kno. i'll let it come, i won't rush. i miss my skoo friends though, it's been a little over a month but it seems like forever. i pray that the Lord add blessings to them in their future. other than that, it hasn't really been n e thing else going on. ttfn

man it's surely been a tedious journey but i finally made to nearly to the end. two major events left to go in my senior year, prom and graduation. the walk accross the stage is going to be something i'll never forget. whew, four long years never seemed so long yet so short. for all this time i been doin a bunch of work and for a little time i've got to kno a bunch of people. shoot, i don't want it to end, the friendships that is. good riddence to skool, but i neva wanna say goodbye to all the relationships i developed. the walk signifies so much for me, the pride, the fortitude, the faith, and future. the walk is seven day from now and from that day forward, my future is limitless.

the crunch time for me is right now. there is very little room for mistakes and no room for excuses. i gotta graduate, i gotta go to college, i gotta move on with my life. it's crunch time spirtually too cuz i gotta kno where i'm goin and get there with small difficulty. i want to say that it's hard but i really can't cuz it's not. it's just a lot of things to do. i got friends and family to help me but i never been a person to ask for asistance. i always felt like i could handle things but now the truth has revealed itself. i gotta fall back on God and just rely on him at a time like this cuz he's the one who will bring me out victoriously.